
It’s been a couple years in the making. Typically, I try to drop a demo reel each year, to show the growth and progress that’s been accomplished with each year that passes. Unfortunately the 09 reel never dropped, due to… well… life. And today I’m happy to say that I’ve finally reached the light at the end of this tunnel, or at least an initial peak at this light.
Last night I compiled images and movie files from the past 2 years, and it’s soo refreshing to see this body of work, united. Most of this you’ve already seen, and some you haven’t. You can comb thru this blog and see for yourself what has been done in the past 2 years, and I’m quite proud of what I was able to produce, with the little time I had, outside of work.
Sometimes I think if I didn’t have my 9-5, how much more I could’ve produced. But at the same time, what I’ve learned at my job was invaluable to the skillet that I have now. Thanks to Eric, my boss, for hooking me up with so much knowledge.
Though this has been a long road, (a sort of lonely one if you don’t have a team to help with the post production), I’ve learned to deal with not being able to keep up with the hustle my mind expects me to. I gotta remind myself to not look left or right.. to stay focused on my lane… to not take on too much, cuz it will ultimately lead to personal disappointment. These past 2 years I think I’ve slowly been able to cope with the changes that have happened. But it’s still hard sometimes. I always want these goals met overnight. And shit doesn’t happen that way.
Number one is your family and health. Fuck all the work if you can’t be happy going home each night. But it’s a thin line when you gotta hustle hard, to have a home that you can be happy to go to. Funny how fucked up and backwards this is, but eventually you find your balance.
Last weekend I watched the original karate kid with Annchan, instead of the new one, on netflix (btw I’m all about netflix and lost). And the one thing that really stuck out to me ,was mr. Miyagi’s persistence in teaching Daniel san, balance.
I’d say that’s what finally got me to the point to be able to put out this reel. Balance. Sure I’m 2 years late, and I didn’t finish the ’09 reel on time as I scheduled, but I was balancing all sorts of shit, so that I could be confident in putting it out now. I had to deal with a move to SF, then transitioning and getting used to it, then keeping a roof over my fams’ head. Then keeping myself healthy, then dealing with a breakup. And then figuring myself out some more… And on top of a 9-5, juggling side projects.? And then starting a new relationship, and day by day investing in it to have a solid foundation. N still tryna stay healthy and do more work. … Damn.
This reel got further and further away. … But now, after that long journey, it’s all been worth it to wait this long to put it out.
I’m happy and balanced.
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